Tuesday, 15 May 2012

When mental illness just takes over....

We all have those days we feel down, things just get blown out of proportion compared to a normal day, everything gets on top of you and you feel like your sinking wih no way out. Well battling PND pretty much results in everyday being one of those days.
Feeling constantl down and depressed is very tiring, add onto that the anxiety and paranoia and the demand of day to day life theres no wonder people find it hard.
It seems to be one of those things that no one fully understands or more to the point no one wants to understand, no one wants to admit to because they feel like theyve failed. But actually..... Its ok! Its just one of those things. Admitting you need help is the best thing you can do for yourself because then youre no longer alone. the only thing you seem to find is people either dont know how to speak to you or they completely ignore the fact yiu have it, offer no support and just iron over any issues they feel you may share with them for fear of saying the wrong thing.
Well one thing I will say is its a bloody lonely battle. No matter how many people are there for you, you still feel utterly alone. All the tablets in the world cannot take away that feeling. Some tablets for anxiety other to give you more motivation but if they change one for the other it causes more symptoms to come out that the other tablets were helping with....... whats the blinking point.
I feel like i should have an acting degree for the amount of time ive been able to act like everything is fine when inside youre falling apart and just want to scream at them to help you.
Its the loneliest battle in the world but it does get better, i've beaten it once before so surely I can do it again.......maybe.....
I would advise anyone who is suffering to confide in someone they trust and fell hey can rely on, and if you know someone suffering please please open your heart/ears to them. Just be there and support them! You have no idea how much difference it will make to their lives!!

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